[ Harry says he doesn't have to do it all on his own, and it doesn't change anything — because he does. At the end of the day, he's the one in the suit; he's the one Eobard traveled decades for. That understanding is what keeps Barry still, hesitant, his gaze dropping to the offered hand as he tries to chip away at that inevitability.
It doesn't change anything, but that doesn't make it false. All the times Cisco's suit has brought him back to life, Caitlin's patched him up, Iris or Joe or his dad have talked him out of the darknes — it all counts for something. The movement's still uncertain when he draws one hand from his pocket, thoughtful, and there's something almost testing about the way he takes hold of Harry's palm.
The uncertainty only lasts a second. When he gives Harry's hand a tight squeeze, it's to drag him forward into a hug that's more about need than warmth; Barry's other hand is in a tight fist when he loops his arm around Harry's shoulders, and he doesn't let go of his grip. ]
I'm sorry.
[ He doesn't even know what he's apologizing for anymore. It sounds as tired as it does earnest, but there's no vulnerability in the raw edges; just frustration. ]
the edit made this so much more upsetting why
It doesn't change anything, but that doesn't make it false. All the times Cisco's suit has brought him back to life, Caitlin's patched him up, Iris or Joe or his dad have talked him out of the darknes — it all counts for something. The movement's still uncertain when he draws one hand from his pocket, thoughtful, and there's something almost testing about the way he takes hold of Harry's palm.
The uncertainty only lasts a second. When he gives Harry's hand a tight squeeze, it's to drag him forward into a hug that's more about need than warmth; Barry's other hand is in a tight fist when he loops his arm around Harry's shoulders, and he doesn't let go of his grip. ]
I'm sorry.
[ He doesn't even know what he's apologizing for anymore. It sounds as tired as it does earnest, but there's no vulnerability in the raw edges; just frustration. ]